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2019

OMG HELLO THERE I haven't written anything on this blog and suddenly BOOM it's 2019 and it's already halfway there. Look, it's 2/6/2019 which means I only have less than 5 months or so bbefore SPM DAMN YOU HAVE NOO IDEA HOW EAGER I AM TO GET OUT FROM THAT SCHOOL. I ca't wait to finish the fucking exam and graduate, so I csn be free from all those judgy people from that school. It's a nightmare I swear. DO NOT ENTER MY SCHOOL. don't get me wrong, of course there are some good things there BUT REALLY THE BAD MEMORIES ONLY OVERSHADOWS THE GOOD ONE. so yeah, wish me luck for SPM. thank you for reading i have no idea how you came across this petite blog. see ya

how society works

assalamualaikum chicassss US1 or what I say ujian selaras 1 is in 7 days. studying is currently going on lewls. I ACTUALLY MISSED WRITING ON YOU BLOG! because here I can say or throw my ideaa without anyone judging me :') so the actual point I wanted to write is because I wanted to throw an issue, a persoalan which I awlays wanted to ask, which comes from this 16-year-old mind. So, since we'd entered form four, we've been exposed to spm, we've been warned about spm, honeymoon year blardy blah blah. Do we actually learn only for exams? okay I keep getting interrupted and now my ideas had flown away bye

I'M BACK

Assalamualaikum chicas HELO BABES IT'S ME YOUR QUEEN BEEATCH basically we've entered 2018, a new ywear, a new evolution of us, or not. The truth is, it's just 2 months and things have been bullshit. Lots of problem had occured eventhough it's just two months. Teachers have been warning us about addmaths and spm and such, so I hv to say 2018 is another year of nightmare. not to mention, 2019 is of course my suffering year, it's spm duh Since I turned 16, I noticed a few changes in me. I started to hate on people a lot. People who are better than me, prettier than me, smarter than me, and I even hated people for no reason. Okay, so since we're sixteen and all, I expect all of us to change and act more mature but sadly, my friends including me are so immature, we're still stucked in our past. Like in a labyrinth. Look, I keep on finding other people's mistake. I keep on blaming others, I always run from my own mistakes. I'm such a bitch. I

Life

Assalamualaikum chicassss It's literally my last day home so I'm going to blabber nonsense things about meself. The truth is I always hate myslef. I purposely mis-spell it bcos myself is a shit. I don't know what I hate more, myself or my life. I always pretend that I'm fine, I'm okay with everything when I'm not. I'm always clumsy and it makes myself annoyed too. And to make things worse, my ego is so high I hate meself. And about socializing, I have weird habit of trying hard to impress myself to everyone and I always push myself to meet other people's expectation. When I get on their bad terms, I feel bad but never says sorry. I don't know if it's my ego or my awkwardness but I always feel shy to apologize, because I hate awkwardness. Ugh. And things always never go my way. If I have high expectations on something, my hope always crash on myself. Even if I don't have high expectations things don't go my way too. I'm alway

Braces

Assalamualaikum chicasss HOLA! It's been years  weeks lol. I have like 3 or 4 days before going back to school :( I hate school. I mean what's the point of learning anymore these days when you can just be dumb and get million followers and then get paid reviews for some stuffs? I wanted to say you can just be pretty but sadly I'm not ahahhahha Okay dokey so the topic is braces. PEOPLE HAVE BEEN SAYING THAT NOWADAYS BRACES IS A SYMBOL OF BEAUTY AND RICHNESS WTF. first of all WHAT THE HELL? the main point of wearing braces is correcting teeth alright. let me repeat that and louder for those in the back CORRECTING TEETH. membetulkan gigi yang tak cantik. our teeth is so bad that we need to correct it and THAT's the point of braces. how can it be a symbol of beauty? idiots. you guys have no idea how sore it is wearing braces. it feels like your gum is swollen and all your teeth is about to come off. Gosh, please. yeah, actually it does make you a little bit

Kim Jonghyun

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Hi guys, before I start, I just want to remark the date when I get my braces on - 18/12/2017 . Hi chicas Kim Jonghyun has always been my bias. He was one of the earliest bias when I first got into kpop. About his death, you guys have no idea how I felt. He was once my ultimate bias. I may look like an ARMY now, but Shawol will always be inside me. I love SHINee more than everything. SHINee has always been strong, the only SM group that stands together, unlike EXO and GG. (not offense) And what I'm mad of is people (esp Malaysia no offence) are being so dumb and stupid . How could they disrespect a death? Yes, he suicide but you guys have NO IDEA what he have been through. Though, suicide isn't the answer. Mark that. It was so upsetting for us, shawols. It's so sad that he made us happy, but we couldn't make him feel the same way. Depression is a scary thing. It feels so frustrating when people are asking what am I so upset for. It's like losing someone

2018

Assalamualaikum chicass So, in less than 15 days, it'll be 2018 and I'm turning 16! Basically 2018 gonna change my life 180 degrees. Like I said, I'm schooled in a boarding school and it's full residential. Being a prefect is very important in that school bcos well, is asrama teachers will not be there if anything happen. But basically in our school, I won't say its name bcos like I mentioned, I hate it, the prefects rule the school and they are RUTHLESS I say. They're selfish, so full of themselves and only care nothing but themselves. They live in ber'puak' or what I say, they only walk in their 'packs' and don't mix with other sutdents. I mean, who does that? Even in Islam, berpuak is forbidden, and they call themselves a proud student in a religious school. Here's proof. Ar-Rum : 31 مُنِيبِينَ إِلَيْهِ وَاتَّقُوهُ وَأَقِيمُوا الصَّلٰوةَ وَلَا تَكُونُوا مِنَ الْمُشْرِكِينَ ● dengan kembali bertaubat kepada-Nya dan bertakwal