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basically we've entered 2018, a new ywear, a new evolution of us, or not.

The truth is, it's just 2 months and things have been bullshit. Lots of problem had occured eventhough it's just two months. Teachers have been warning us about addmaths and spm and such, so I hv to say 2018 is another year of nightmare.

not to mention, 2019 is of course my suffering year, it's spm duh

Since I turned 16, I noticed a few changes in me. I started to hate on people a lot. People who are better than me, prettier than me, smarter than me, and I even hated people for no reason. Okay, so since we're sixteen and all, I expect all of us to change and act more mature but sadly, my friends including me are so immature, we're still stucked in our past. Like in a labyrinth.

Look, I keep on finding other people's mistake. I keep on blaming others, I always run from my own mistakes. I'm such a bitch. I know and it makes me hate myself even more. Eversince 2018, I always run away from people. It was because I'm scared, I don't want to hurt others by my stupid uncontrollable mouth. I started talking less and run away from my best friends.

I love them because they don't ask me what's wrong. Because if they did, I don't know what sarcastic answer will slip out of my mouth.

Eversince 2018 started, it's like I've been possessed by the highest rank of demon.

I keep on wanting attention, I keep on wanting fame, wanting all.

I want to get rid this part of me. I want to get rid of myself. I don't know, but I'm hating myself even more. 2018 has been nothing but a bitch to me.

Silver Rain xx

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